Bow Before Him

It has been about a month since I completely gave my life to Jesus. My life was changed at a camp that I have attended twice now. As I have said in my other blog, I went to came 3 years ago, I accepted Jesus into my heart but then I moved so my flame burned out. This year at camp though, it was different, it was so much more life changing. I almost decided not to go to camp this year but one of my closest friends talked me into it and I can't thank her enough. Before I arrived at the camp, I asked Jesus to do something for me that would be life changing because I was barely hanging on, if hanging on at all to Him. He definitely answered my prayer. The first night of camp the speaker talked about what was stopping us from giving our lives to Jesus all the but this and but that, that came with it. That really had the most impact on me because I was putting someone in my life before God and I finally realized that, that night. I went up and had someone pray for me. The second night he talked about identity crises; how we convince ourselves that we are what we have done, failures, what other people say that we are, and by our insecurities. This one did not speak to me that much, but it was an amazing sermon and I could see that it spoke to a lot of the kids at that camp because they were struggling with that. So I am very thankful for that sermon. The third night he talked about being branded by Jesus. This was my other favorite sermon. It talked about when we are branded by Jesus that, He is the main part of our lives, and how we need to keep that fire for Jesus alive inside of us. This was the night that I gave my life to Jesus Christ because I felt that I was branded a long time ago but I kept falling away from Him and I did not want to do that anymore. I went to the front and I started worshiping to God and you can tell that so many lives were being changed as you looked around. I got angry, yes angry, because all the people looked so happy and free. I could not realize why I never felt anything like that before when I gave my life to Jesus.You know how so many people say that when they do it they just feel so free and something changed in them, well I never go that before. I wanted to feel that change, I started to pray to God and I prayed that He would make me feel that change. I was mad at God, I kept asking Him what I was doing wrong. He then put a picture in my head, it was two hands about to grab hold of each other but they were not quite there. I knew in my heart that, that was the hand of God and the other was mine. I felt so close but like I just could not quite get there. I knew something was holding my back . I knew God was telling my to go to the front to the alter and bow before Him and pray. Well there were tons of other people there and I acted like I didn't hear Him because I didn't want people to look at me. How lame is that, who cares what anyone thinks. Let me tell you right now, when God asks you to do something for him, do it, it shows Him how much you love Him, and that you don't care what anyone else things. Anyways, so I pretty much told God no. This pathway between people started forming in front of my to the alter, I thought to myself you have got to be kidding me. Then one of the girls taking pictures sat in the spot were I was to go. I thought she would be there awhile, well I hoped, so I told God, if and when that girl moves I will go to the alter. Right then and there she moved. I decided that I should really go to the alter and I did. I started to pray to God how hurt I was, that I was so close to Him but I was not quite there. This girl came and prayed with me and then she says" Sierra, God loves you so much and He knows that you are hurting, He understands" She said some others things but this is what stuck out to me the most. He did hear my cry and He was there listening. Another thing that blew my mind is when she got up to go pray with someone else, I never seen her before, and she knew my name... I went back to praying then our preacher came and sat by me and put his hand on my back and started praying. I thought i was the preacher so I opened my eyes to see and what I saw was feet with olden day sandles. I was so shocked I couldn't believe what I was seeing, then I thought to myself then it must not be the speaker, he was wearing tennis shoes. I went back to praying again. I felt a hand on my head. As the speaker got up to leave I looked at him walk away and sure enough he was wearing tennis shoes. I started to cry because right then and there I realized that I was actually bowing before the feet of Jesus and He could hear me hurting. I know that He showed me that He was there with me. I literally saw the feet of Jesus and He put His hand on me and prayed. I prayed and thanked Him so much for the life changing event that I prayed for. After I prayed for a little longer, I got up and I felt a weight lift off my chest. Then I saw that picture in my head but the hands were now holding each others and I knew that I finally have God in my life and I was never going to let go. I started to worship my God.

Whatever is holding you back from God, remove it, because God is wanting to come into your life. He wants to be apart of everything and not just somethings. It will be hard but it will be so worth it. God is amazing and I hope that this will help you in someway. My life has changed so much and I know it is for the better. All you have to do is really accept Christ into your life and then He will come in. You just have to make that decision that you are wanting that. You are the only one that can make that decision no one else. God keeps pulling at you, just do it(: No matter how many times I told God that I didn't want to go to the alter, I didn't want to give Him every part of my life, He just kept on pulling at me and He never gave up on me. He will never give up on you either. I'm going to pray and then let you go.

Dear Heavenly Father, I pray to you that you let my story work in who reads this, Lord. That you would help them see that you are the answer to all their problems. Let them know that You want to be part of their lives so bad and that You love them so much. I thank you so much for giving me my life changing event that I asked for. Now, I pray and ask you to give them their life changing event. Keep pulling at them Lord. Love you. In Jesus name, Amen♥

Love you and I encourage you, if you can find a church camp that you can go to, go, it will be so worth your time(: