Where to turn

Here I am sitting, exhausted, stressed with school barely starting last week, I am a loss for words. I have been so stressed out I'm actually making myself sick. I have felt as if the world is on my shoulders. Going to school, work, trying to still have a social life, and have things at home be good. The thing about that is not all of that is going to work all at the same time and I have a really hard time accepting that. One of my biggest issues are things going wrong or least seeming like they are. I like to control things, I like things going my way but that ever rarely happens. I know why though, I'm not made to control things! I'm not made to take every ones cares on myself! I'm not suppose to be superwoman, no matter how much I want to be! That is God's job! He doesn't want us trying to take that over. We were not made to do that. I have struggled with it forever now it feels like. You know though..I have come to realize this. All through our journey on this earth you will learn more about yourself, go through bad and good times, meet new people, lose people, experience everything that life has to offer. My journey with God is taking me places I had no idea I would go. I guess I shouldn't call them places, more like experiences. Because you have God in your heart doesn't mean you automatically are perfect and do no wrong. Yes, we are less likely to do things wrong because if we have Jesus in our heart we are more likely to live like Him. BUT, we are humans and we are sinners There is only one perfect person and that is Jesus. One of my imperfections in my relationship with God is I have found myself not trusting and relying on God as much lately like I should. And get this, this probably won't be the last time. Though I will grow to not do it as bad I guess you can say. Life is a learning experience,  you will never experience the same situation more than once, at least not exactly. Different things are handled differently. Stress and relying on other people are two of my struggles and I have known that my whole life I take after my mother, but I shouldn't stress. God does not want people to live their lives here on this earth worrying and being stressed. That is not what He intended us to do on this earth. That is his job, to take whatever is bothering you and to take care of it. We were put on this earth to share the love of Jesus Christ. Can you do that being bummed out, worrying, stressed, and sad? Of course not! That's why you're not supposed to deal with that stuff. There are things that come in life that will get us down, change our lives, and make us worry though the good news is,  don't do any of that. Accept it, pray, hand it over to God, and live. Count on God to take care of it, but in HIS time, not yours. Trust God and believe that He wants whats best for you, He wants you to rely and depend on him. He is the perfect father and friend. Even though I have a hard time with it, I'm going to work on trusting God with EVERYTHING in my life: family, boyfriend, church, school, friends, every part of my life so I don't have to go through my senior year of high school being a wreck. My favorite verse that I saw when reading that went to this is, God's a safe-house for the battered, a sanctuary during the bad times. The moment you arrive, you relax; you're never sorry you knocked. ♥ Psalm 9:9-10, Message Bible. 

Thank you for reading another one of my blogs. I hope you have a wonderful day, Love you!(:

Dear Heavenly Father, I know that sometimes I fall away from you and try to handle my earthly problems on my own but I know in my heart that I don't have to, that you will personally take all my problems off my shoulders and put them on yours if I just simply ask you to. Why? because You love me, not just me all your children. Let them know that you want to do the same for all of your children because You love them and you just want them to be happy and to know your mercy and peace. Thank you Jesus for everyday you have blessed us with. Amen♥

Songs I can't get out of my head(:

KJ-52 - Dangerous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IM7gUpKB2MQ

Manafest- Never let you go
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LUDDkve7YA&feature=relmfu

TobyMac- Me without you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qGa5rIOB28

Strong Enough♥

When life gets you down and as if the whole world is on your shoulders, turn to God. Like they say "Remember, when the world pushes you to your knees, you're in the perfect position to pray!" This will be a shorter blog but I have been struggling with a lot lately and there is one person I can turn to, God.♥ There is a song that helps me, then one song I always listen to is called Strong Enough by Matthew West. I really recommend listening to it. Just always remember God does not want you to go through things yourself He wants to take every step with you. & always remember God will never give you anything that you can't handle. God believes in you and knows that you are strong but when you feel like you can't do it anymore, give it all to God. You were not put on this earth to go through things yourself! When I have challenges I turn to God and I fall in love with Him even more. He is ALWAYS there. He has never left your side you just have to realize that He is there and He is not going anywhere! He never puts you through things to hurt you but to make you realize He is there for you no matter what and He believes in you and knows you are strong enough for whatever is thrown at you. Keep your head up high and always remember you're never alone!

What does the future hold?

Future. What does that word mean to you? Does the future to you mean just tomorrow, the next week, or maybe when you're in college, or 30? How does it make you feel? Does it make you want to rush through your life to get to it or does it make you want to go and hide? I believe the future can be years from now or could even just be the next day, may I add is never promised. The future is not the past and not right now. I believe that we just try to rush through life to get to a certain point in our life to where we don't even appreciate the time that we are given or we will just wait till tomorrow, next week, or next month to do something. Why not now? A big thing I have a problem with is procrastination with all areas of my life honestly whether it comes to chores, reading the Bible, homework, ect. But you know I had a friend lose his life a couple months ago and honestly you don't know if you will have tomorrow, next week, or the next 2 years. There are two messages I'm going to try to get out, don't waste your precious life that you have been given and trust God and have Him work through you and have His will be done of your life. This life that you are living right this minute you have to make smart decisions with it. Yes life can get hard to where you don't want to try anymore but there is an answer to that: God. God is your heavenly father who just wants the best for you He knows exactly what is best for you and what will make you the most happy. How do we know He knows that? Cause He made you!! You are God's creation. He knows how many hairs are on your head, He knows absolutely everything about you. I find myself struggling to know who I am and what I want but I know I have someone to turn to and trust because when I'm clueless, He has the answers♥ Yes, sometimes you will have to wait for answers sometimes God will wait to give them but He will give them to you and at exactly the right time. You know sometimes I think to myself well I have my dreams but what if that is not what God wants me to do? Well then what He wants me to do will be better and give me satisfaction maybe that I thought I would never find in that. God works in mysterious ways you have to remember that, but trust Him. Fully believe that He knows whats best for you cause He knows more about you then you do yourself. He knows hidden things about you that you never knew and He is just waiting for the right time to show you. So instead of feeling like you have to figure everything out, don't, go to God and talk to Him about it. He will show you. Take opportunities that are thrown your way maybe you will find something that God is trying to show you. At times I feel like God tries to get to do things, like I will just get this random voice in my head to wave at someone, say hi ask them how they are doing, help them take their groceries to their car, maybe pitch in some money when there isn't enough, just nice kind things for people to show people Gods love and sometimes I don't because i don't want to be weird. I mean seriously walk up to some random person and start talking, I think I would be kinda like what the heck? but guess what I would never forget that that person did that. I would think back and be like wow that person might  actually care about people. And that is what God is trying to do with his people, to love and care for each other. Show people the love of God♥ I definitely need to work on when God tells me to go do it, I do it instead of saying What If or oh I will do it next time, maybe next time I'm here I will do it. No! Go do it, you might make someones day. And you never know whether you will have the next time or maybe even then. I know I get off topic sometimes but I feel passionate about everything I write one these blogs because this is how God helps me reach people. Maybe sometime God will show me another way I can reach people. What I'm trying to say here is don't wait to do something if you really feel like you need to or want to. Do it. Why not? Well unless it's wrong of course. Live out the will that God has for you. No, we don't know exactly what that is, but the personal relationship we have will God will show us the way. No, we are not going to live perfect lives, not everyday everything this going to be great, but when something goes wrong. Tell God how you feel, how to move on from it, and what to do next. You might not get a direct answer right then and there but you will receive the answer at the right time. God is never late. Until then, live the way God wants you to. Love people, truly care. Read the Bible, to help learn more. Talk and pray to God. If God pulls you towards something do it, don't ask what if or say the next time. No, do it. Tomorrow is not promised.

Thanks for reading another one of my blogs!(: Every time you read one try to let God speak to you and show what He wants you to get out of it. Do that with everything. God wants whats best for you and He wants to be there for everything. He doesn't want to push himself on you, He wants you to come to Him and then can you feel the grace of God. There is a quote that I would like to share a quote that led me to writing this blog. "A man who walks with God, always reaches his destination." It's true, that's my whole blog made into one sentence. Go today and do something new, listen to God if you wants you to do something you never know, that one person you and go to could have a major impact on your life. Who knows, only God♥

Music♥:
Brandon Heath-I'm Not Who I Was
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K1ZgtCRO-KY&feature=g-vrec&context=G25c04eaRVAAAAAAAAAw

Jason Gray-Remind me who I am
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eKyY8zfjBMQ&ob=av2e

I don't regret-barlowgirl
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtKAk3L1E6o&feature=related

Brandon Heath - I'm Not Who I Was

Brandon Heath - I'm Not Who I Was

Jesus vs False Religion

There is a video that has been circulating around and I would like to say my thoughts on it. I recommend watching it first, if you have not seen it yet, and if you have you could even watch it again. It's called Why I hate religion but love Jesus and the link is http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1IAhDGYlpqY.

I want to start out by saying he is talking about fake religion, when people are saying they are a christian but not really showing it, or they do show it but on the inside it's not true. For example as he says if people only know your Christian only by your facebook. I'm not big on religion either to be honest. Yes, I do consider myself a Christian but I believe that my relationship is more important than saying yeah I'm a Christian. Because you can go to church every Sunday but if you don't have that personal relationship with God, what's the point. The thing I find about religion is there is certain things you have to do. Like he said a long list of chores and bondage. Every time I find myself calling myself religious, I beat myself up because I'm like I'm not doing what their doing, I'm not doing it right, I'm not doing enough. But when it comes to my relationship with God it's not like that. Yes you do need to read the bible and pray. That's so their can can be communication and you can learn God's will. God can talk back to you through the Bible cause those are His words given to you. With relationship, their has to be communication. You can pray and talk to him, you read the bible and He talks to you back. The thing I love about talking to God is I don't have to be embarrassed about anything, even sin yes I kind of am but I can ask for forgivness and He will forgive me. I can talk tot God about ANYTHING and He is always there to listen! God is not their to judge you He is there to be there for you and heal your broken heart. No you are not going to be perfect in everything: going to church every Sunday, reading the Bible everyday, and praying. But God doesn't expect you to be perfect he just expects to try. With any relationship there has to be effort on both sides to make it work, Jesus holds up His end of the deal, which means you need to too. But truth is your going to mess up and sin, it's human nature and Jesus understands that. As he said on the cross "Father forgive them, they know not what they do." Back to religion vs Jesus, he says religion is like spraying perfume on a coffin and not going to the core, I believe it, it's the personal relationship that you have with God that goes to the core, not saying your Christian. When you have that personal realrelationship with God, it starts taking over the in side then starts to show on the out side. And it's not a mask, it's God shining through you. The thing about today I find in church's, not all, but some is they think they are better than everyone one, you are never supposed to compare yourself to anyone or judge anyone else, that's wrong you are no better than anyone else. Like when he said just because you call somebody else blind does not automatically give you vision. A lot of people say they are Christian and then judge the young single mother or even just someone with tattoos and say they are not good enough. That's not Jesus working through them, Jesus loves and accepts EVERYONE! I believe religion is just man made and a fail and what God is trying to do with His people of this world. He is not wanting people to act like they have it all together.The thing about religion is it's like you have to act like everything is okay when it's not. You shouldn't have to do that, the relationship with God is what heals the broken. God's salvation is what gets you to heaven not putting on a mask and saying your Christian. God doesn't want you to have it all together, He want's to help you and make the hurt go away. It's the truth that you are hurt and broken that makes your relationship with God stronger. Religion is living a double life, having a relatioship is confessing your sins and trying to move on from them with God's help. I love when he says he boast in his weakness because that is the truth with God, and also when he says "The church isn't a museam for good people but a hospital for the broken" which is so true. You should be able to go to church and confess that you are broken and be healed not go to church and act like everything is perfect. You're church family should all come together and confess you are having a hard time, not be like yup I'm a Christian it's all good, when it's really not. Don't put on that fake mask and smile. We are all broken and hurting people that just need the grace of Jesus.♥ You don't need to hide your failiure or sin, you need to be truthful and have Gods grace and salvation work through you. God welcomes you and wants you no matter what you have done and will do because He loves you unconditionally! God does not force you to come to Him, He waits for you and He will wait forever for you if He has to because he loves you and just wants to be there for you and walk with you through everything you go through in life. In the Bible it was the religious people that turned Jesus and judged him and said He was not who He was. It's the people with the personal relationship with God that I believe truly knew it was Jesus. A lot of people that go to church these days that I see soak themselves in self righteousness just because they did something good. God is good, God is love, and when you do good things and love people that's not you doing it, it's God using you to do it, it's God shining through you. You don't deserve the applaud, Jesus does. I honestly believe that religion and a relationship with God are two different things. As he says "Religion is man searching for God and Jesus is God searching for man." All God wants to do is have you come to Him, to have a personal relationship with him that goes straight to the core, to help you when you are hurt, celebrate when your happy, and shine is love through you that He has for His sons and daughters. I get off track sometimes but I know that God will always be there to pick me up and straighten me back on track. God is amazing and I wish that everyone could feel the unconditional love He has for everyone and know the feeling of always having someone there you can talk to and listen to you. Those are my thoughts on the video and you may feel different but I find this video amazing and I could watch it over and over again. Watch it a few more times if needed and really see what God is trying to tell you.(: Always remember you're amazing and so loved!


A couple of soungs:
Hanging on - Britt Nicole
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U9X-dFCIv6w

Busted Heart-For King and Country
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJvL9rHCpys

God is not Dead-Newsboys
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghC3gqNQJPQ

I pray that you just really speak to them and make them realize what you are trying to tell them what you are trying to say. That you don't want to give them a list of rules but have a personal relatioship with them. I want to thank you for everyday you give me.I know sometimes I fall off track but you are always there to pick me back up. You are oh so amazing! I love you so much. Thank you for everything the hurt to learn from and the happiness to  be thankful for and keep me going.  In Jesus name Amen♥