Monday, September 10, 2012

Where to turn

Here I am sitting, exhausted, stressed with school barely starting last week, I am a loss for words. I have been so stressed out I'm actually making myself sick. I have felt as if the world is on my shoulders. Going to school, work, trying to still have a social life, and have things at home be good. The thing about that is not all of that is going to work all at the same time and I have a really hard time accepting that. One of my biggest issues are things going wrong or least seeming like they are. I like to control things, I like things going my way but that ever rarely happens. I know why though, I'm not made to control things! I'm not made to take every ones cares on myself! I'm not suppose to be superwoman, no matter how much I want to be! That is God's job! He doesn't want us trying to take that over. We were not made to do that. I have struggled with it forever now it feels like. You know though..I have come to realize this. All through our journey on this earth you will learn more about yourself, go through bad and good times, meet new people, lose people, experience everything that life has to offer. My journey with God is taking me places I had no idea I would go. I guess I shouldn't call them places, more like experiences. Because you have God in your heart doesn't mean you automatically are perfect and do no wrong. Yes, we are less likely to do things wrong because if we have Jesus in our heart we are more likely to live like Him. BUT, we are humans and we are sinners There is only one perfect person and that is Jesus. One of my imperfections in my relationship with God is I have found myself not trusting and relying on God as much lately like I should. And get this, this probably won't be the last time. Though I will grow to not do it as bad I guess you can say. Life is a learning experience,  you will never experience the same situation more than once, at least not exactly. Different things are handled differently. Stress and relying on other people are two of my struggles and I have known that my whole life I take after my mother, but I shouldn't stress. God does not want people to live their lives here on this earth worrying and being stressed. That is not what He intended us to do on this earth. That is his job, to take whatever is bothering you and to take care of it. We were put on this earth to share the love of Jesus Christ. Can you do that being bummed out, worrying, stressed, and sad? Of course not! That's why you're not supposed to deal with that stuff. There are things that come in life that will get us down, change our lives, and make us worry though the good news is,  don't do any of that. Accept it, pray, hand it over to God, and live. Count on God to take care of it, but in HIS time, not yours. Trust God and believe that He wants whats best for you, He wants you to rely and depend on him. He is the perfect father and friend. Even though I have a hard time with it, I'm going to work on trusting God with EVERYTHING in my life: family, boyfriend, church, school, friends, every part of my life so I don't have to go through my senior year of high school being a wreck. My favorite verse that I saw when reading that went to this is, God's a safe-house for the battered, a sanctuary during the bad times. The moment you arrive, you relax; you're never sorry you knocked. ♥ Psalm 9:9-10, Message Bible. 

Thank you for reading another one of my blogs. I hope you have a wonderful day, Love you!(:

Dear Heavenly Father, I know that sometimes I fall away from you and try to handle my earthly problems on my own but I know in my heart that I don't have to, that you will personally take all my problems off my shoulders and put them on yours if I just simply ask you to. Why? because You love me, not just me all your children. Let them know that you want to do the same for all of your children because You love them and you just want them to be happy and to know your mercy and peace. Thank you Jesus for everyday you have blessed us with. Amen♥

Songs I can't get out of my head(:

KJ-52 - Dangerous
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IM7gUpKB2MQ

Manafest- Never let you go
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-LUDDkve7YA&feature=relmfu

TobyMac- Me without you
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8qGa5rIOB28

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